衡星的小宇宙

绞尽脑汁，我隐约记得小时候我经常哭。被妈妈打，我哭；被昆虫吓到，我哭；被鬼戏唬傻，我哭；被老师痛骂，我哭......妈妈常说我眼睛旁长的是哭包痣，所以生来特别爱哭。回想起来，我的确是个特别容易流泪的人，即使现在长大了还是如此。不过，我的眼泪是不容许被别人看见的，只有在漆黑的角落我才放纵自己抒发情绪。

我，就是长期生长在温室里的一朵小花，总是那么的弱不禁风、意志脆弱。家，这个温暖窝一直庇护着我，或许因此让我变得如此依赖，如此不堪一击。待在家里，我才会变成最真的那个我；在父母面前，或许还像个长不大的小孩，蹦蹦跳跳，偶尔撒撒娇。

想家，我哭；想念家人，我哭；受委屈，我哭；感动，我哭；心受伤，我哭；徬徨无助，我哭.....我的眼泪似乎轻易滑下脸蛋，多的好廉价。大人总认为长大了就不该在像个小孩一样哭哭啼啼，难道长大必须付出失去哭的权利吗？小孩总是可以灿烂地微笑着，天真没烦恼，真是因为他们够真，想哭就哭，想笑就笑，哭完笑完就像雨过天晴继续生活。大人们总把烦恼往心里藏，压抑着自己的情绪，所以才会变得如此地笨重、多负担。

一个人躲起来静思，安静地哭，好好地释发而不是压抑情绪。这就是我爱哭的原因，哭完了人反而变更轻松。别忘记，眼泪可是替身体排出多余的毒素，就像把伤心难过装进每颗泪珠，让眼泪一并带走悲伤！

昨天教完补习回来，我的喉咙就宣告攻陷了！半夜还多次因喉咙痛到不行而醒来，根本就睡不到。原本还以为今天去打羽毛球，结果一大早起床我就投降了！从没有这么痛过，痛到说话超辛苦，吞口水痛，不吞口水也痛，一直不断喝水...然后也一直上厕所 =.=

真的很希望这世界上有一种发明，一种药，神药，一吃了喉咙痛立刻消除。不过这是梦，是要醒的！归根究底都是我太贪吃！吃的时候明知如此，我却抗拒不了；现在后悔已来不及了！朋友们，下次请阻止我吃煎炸 T.T 希望我能在拜五之前痊愈，要不然我就不用教书了！

现在每个礼拜都躲在家里，别人上街去，我...就在家里被那些LAW淹死！今天，好不容易从LAW书里钻出来，突然很有Feel要写Blog...嘻嘻（奸笑），因为现在感觉好HIgh、好兴奋！要分享分享！

今天到底有什么酱特别呢?! 就是我可爱的弟弟出营的日子，当了两个月多兵今天终于回家了！重要是，他带了很多东西回来，包括那些跟随他永生的美好回忆。一堆东西当中，吸引我的就是一本书，自我介绍（这个年代还流行吗 =.=）书里的内容大概就是“有万能，有惊喜，有快乐”（小弟外号万能）、很高、很瘦、很多话讲....还有叫他努力追“LJFN”良家妇女（又是一堆的外号=.=）哈哈，重点是那女生，他喜欢的女生，就像我之前猜的，虽然我很八 XD，不过都中了！

我老弟长大了...哈哈～看他常和女生传简讯，但怎么还没把到手呢？XD 看到了某页，我不得不笑。是那女生写的自我介绍，写的比谁都有心思，下页有一段比谁都长的留言。留言的精华在于她看了前面朋友写的追LJFN鼓励语后，竟然问我弟弟是谁，她认识吗...如果认识可以帮我弟弟...哇咔咔！小妹妹，那不就是你咯！我想我弟弟看到这后应该心碎了T.T 整本书没认真看过，这页却细读了。别人写的怎么美，他也觉得始终比不上这一页。

以我的直觉，虽然不是很清楚之间的事情，也不认识那女生，但我觉得她也对我这个笨蛋弟弟有好感咯！不知道为什么，我很想他们在一起，很想我弟弟开心，很想看他拍拖...突然觉得初恋好美 XD 虽然妈妈一定觉得弟弟还小要读书，不适合谈恋爱，但我觉得既然缘分来了就别阻止它，十扑！虽然自己还没找到幸福，但看见弟弟傻傻的笑，我也很开心=P

p/s: 照片来源--偷拍=P 但看是光明真大的！老弟千万别看到这，我不想被你打死>.<

Yoohoo~ I received my new pc today, a new system unit (CPU). It's faster much much more than my old CPU, it's time for it to retire XD I am feeling good to have a new pc to online and do my assignments, but on the same time my purse also bocor T.T I can see negative figure for the set off of income and expenses in this month >.<

Soon being crazy because of law! This few days keep study and study...haiz~ I sacrificed the time to visit my brother just to stuck all the lawsss inside my brain. What to do?! Now I am no longer a diploma student but a degree student! Hardworking is the only way to pass the exam!

Facebook, a famous social web, helps me get back a lot old friends and interact with my dear friends. Recently, I found another function of Facebook....it shows me the miracle of make up! I often found some profiles with many mutual friends but face not really seem familiar to me. After I did some "research" on their photosss, only I recognise their face. Oh my God! Make up really can turn the face into another person just like undergoes plastic surgery!!!

Every week one day outing! I am really having a crazy degree life, instead of study hard, I play hard XD I watched a quite special movie today -- Sanctum, in which tell a story about a group of people in their cave diving expedition and in the journey of saving themselves from drowned inside the mystery cave.

The movie is very cruel where the people die one by one with a disgusting look, and sometimes forced to sacrifice someone. I think I was shocked when people are being sacrificed, and I just keep covered my mouth from screaming. I think I am weird because I cried for this movie while I don't for those touching movie. LOL~

It's has been almost one month we started our degree classes, but I still haven't done a full revision on the lesson I learned. I am feeling the pressure especially in my MIS class, what teacher explained I can't understand completely and I don't think I am able to answer an exam question. Haiz~ I don't want to be like an idiot in the class.

Today was a tired day, study almost whole day, and night still have to work >.< Surprisingly, I received my first present from my student since I have teach tuition for almost 3 years...very happy! Touched~XD