衡星的小宇宙

人生就像一个摩天轮,坐在某个包厢的我们时高时低,就像人生的起落。 当人生遇上了低潮,只要坚持不放弃,等待时机的出现,总会有机会再攀上高峰。

昨晚和朋友去喝茶,我们聊了好多。当中忽然让我提起一些陈年往事,一些仍然清晰留在我脑海中的事。说着说着,我其实也没想到太多,毕竟也说着看在眼里别人的故事。但是,回家躺在床上时,却有着一些想法。我似乎特别爱在睡觉之前思考,哈哈!

我不是会主动去认识朋友的人,即使有也不多。正与大家眼里的我相反,我其实交际手腕不好。读书时期,我只是个小人物,引不起别人太多的注意。我一直认为,交朋友要找和自己合拍的,在他面前不需伪装,也可放一百个心的信任他。如果我无法融合进你的世界,不用啰嗦,我不会勉强我自己,我会自动消失。曾几何时,我尝试闯入她们的圈子,可是很抱歉,原来我和她们是不同世界的人,勉强下去也只是让自己辛苦。当时,其一人绝顶聪明成绩好,因此深受大家的欢迎。容许我粗俗一些说,那是巴结!大家都爱围着她转,尽可能讨好她。

那些没地位有不起眼的人物,很多时候有些被看不起、被忽略。就像我,没有受欢迎指数,也就是没利用价值,可有可无。虽然知道那也可能是无心的,但我还是受了不礼貌的待遇,有些被践踏的感觉,明显这些是不会发生在受欢迎的她身上。后来,我成绩突飞猛进,也成为了班上响当当的人物。我感觉到的是,之前像是践踏我的人对我好多了!世界真的那么现实吗?我经历的也只是芝麻小事,我甚至从朋友嘴里听过更伤人的遭遇。对我而言,朋友是掏真心交的。不是看外在条件,不是看家庭背景,是用心去好好的待一个人。



**用心体会,以心待人**

人生处处是挑战,每天都在迎接着不同的挑战。我觉得做人就好像玩闯关游戏,你必须完成所有的任务、克服所有的困难方能闯进下一个关卡。可是,有谁会知道自己的人生有多少个关卡,何时才能到达游戏的尽头,尝点甜头。又或许,这游戏永无止境,你必须玩到双脚伸直那天。可是,我不爱玩闯关游戏,我大都停留在某关,没法挑战成功前进。

人人都觉得我是个硬朗的女生,可是我自知我比任何人都还要懦弱。别以为我总可以迎刃而解,其实我也有心力交瘁的时候。我累了,为何我要面对这么多挑战?为何烦恼总是随着年龄增长?我真的好怀念我的童年,天真无邪没烦恼,生活快乐逍遥。我大概是温室里的小花,长期接受保护让我有点失去独立的能力,缺乏面对并解决问题的耐力。

哭了,痛了,累了,也终于懂了,原来我还是得面对所有的挑战,还是得靠自己去解决,没有人可以永远代你解决。或许,上天觉得我还不够成熟,要给我更多的磨练。可是,我真的好累,不喜欢这么多的烦恼。越多的磨练,我的心就越刀枪不入,好事吗?或许,之前的自己活得有点天真,现在才发现原来外面的世界是多么复杂的结构。我没有你想象中坚强,别给我那么多又难啃的问题!



**成熟不是人的心变老,是泪在打转还能微笑**



Rarely, we can get one public holiday, which OL and OB no need work.....most importantly I can date them =) Secretly, we planned a celebration for Cw's birthday on next week, but he also smell our plan...haha~

I thought our session will be end in evening, who know sudden Miss Connie wanna go sing k with Wendy and dumb us in cinema. They finish k session at 4pm but we start our movie session at 4pm too. Eventually, we going to eat dinner together.

Today I watched the most expensive movie in my life, Skyline for RM14. Honestly, there are some exciting scene but not really an interesting movie. Sitting in the cinema, I feeling a bit dizzy and wanna sleep >.<

Now only I realised my friends all have so many date, they all rushing for second round -- yumcha. As a result, we forced to have dinner earlier, take some photos and give the hero of the day his present -- T-shirt! Happy be-early Birthday!!!



Hero of the day -- Cw
see his soh lou face when receive the present....lol~


our dinner clinic -- T-Bowl
a concept restaurant with all bathroom's setting
environment and tableware are interesting
.........but the food is so so only~


tuna crab stick cheese baked rice not as tasty as Kim Gary
lemon honey is so small cup but costs you RM2.50
shit-shaped ice cream looks special but a bit too sweet for me






**男人永远希望自己是女人的第一个,女人则希望自己是男人的最后一个**



My mom was sicked, she feeling dizzy and thus I have to bear all those houseworks today. I am being waked up early to buy breakfast and bring mom go see doctor. After settled all housework, I have to go for interview opposite IOI. Though I have go earlier by about 45 minutes, but I still used up lot of time to get the location and nearly late =.=

Today interview, today start work. Today was a busy day, rushing to work place after fetch my sister. Ohya~almost forget to tell what is my job, work as a marker in Kumon. However, everything is out of my expectation, much more tired and hungry! I worked from 5pm to 9.30pm without dinner break, mark exercise non-stop, even don't have the free time to go for toilet. Checking the exercise answer against those stack of answer books, this is totally torturing my eyes.

When I am driving back, I really wish I could close my eyes as my eyes really feeling PAIN!!! I think I hungry till wanna vomit, go home eat dinner also eat very less although those was my favourite food. I even feeling dizziness and slept for 12 hours. Conclusion, this job not suitable for me, if continue to work I will blind lo!





**我很富有,不是因为我拥有很多,是因为我要求的少**



没有由来,没有预警,我的心突然觉得很不安。昨晚一躺在床上,大脑就开始翻转,我在想真的往后的日子都要这样过着吗?要这样挥霍光阴吗?在前一个月内,我也很用心在找工作,可是被兼职补习牵绊着,我根本无法潇洒做决定。最终,我放弃了,打算就这样坐在家里,偶尔去教补习就过了这几个月。

要知道这种闲人生活你无需羡慕,因为我很想跟你交换。每天起床心都不知往哪飘,要坐在电脑前吗?要双眼直盯电视吗?还是要手捧书籍呢?这是没人生,度日如年!从来没想现在这样,这样没方向,好像在山林里迷路了。这样的人生好颓废,明明可以利用这段时间做些什么的,累积工作经验也好,赚钱也好。

一早,我就闷闷不乐,心仿佛被大石压着。做什么事情都觉得力不从心,无法专注。终于,我还是上网.........找工作!忽然觉得我不应该挑了吧,兼职会计、5天会计、老师、其他兼职.....统统申请!找工作当儿,我又怕自己无法胜任,做几个月又辞职会不会不太好,以后会不会忙不过来.....?我绝对是个多虑的人,担心这,担心那,快快让我解决我的烦恼吧!!!



**如果你知道去哪,全世界都会为你让路**


If you know me well, you sure will know actually I don't really like to eat sushi as I hate raw food. However, I think most probably is because I had bored till crazy, I asked my friend to go eat sushi with me. Refresh my memories in my brain, the last time I eat sushi at Sushi King is last year Christmas eve and that the only time I ate sushi in my life XD

First time having a great chance sit down and start recognising each sushi, which raw and which cooked. Both of us ate 6 plates sushi, 2 handroll and 1 salmon burger, feeling not bad for the sushi i had. I was wondering how those people eat so many plates till 20+ during sushi bonanza, my stomach so full after ate those few plates.







**男人哭了是因为他真的爱了,女人哭了是因为她真的放弃了**




Finally, result came out on this Monday. Hence, today I went to college and took it. Today was a bad luck day, my car sensor not working....can't start the car engine....college car park full...late....luckily eventually all solved.

Result not bad this time, though not all distinction, CGPA drop again. I satisfied. Last time, I usually take result with a huge gang of friends; Now, they all busy working and don't have the free time to take their result. I have go for a movie after taking the result. Red, an action movie with some comedy feature, quite not bad~

Came back from movie not long, I go out yumcha with Edward and Hui Nin....luckily mom didn't scold me XD One day passed~



**没有不合格的学生,只有不合格的家长**




Everyday staying at home, with no direction, now only I realise actually lifeless day is more stressful than busy day. In busy day, at least I have a clear path but in lifeless day, I like walking in a dark unknown place with no torchlight. I thought to get a part time job in kindergarden or primary learning centre. However, I give up this mind after listen to Hui Nin's stressful complaint.

These recent days seem giving me more pressure than those study days. Annoyances and problems coming like flood, feel strengthless to solve them. I think I just need someone's ear =(

Tonight, although it's not really related to us, but we have to attend the buffet dinner. Fried rice, fried mihun, roasted pork, fried wantan, fried fish pieces, fried popiah, prawn, rendang chicken, curry chicken, fried chicken, vegetables, kuihsss, glutinous rice, yam cake, soup mee, ice kacang, soya, red bean dessert, tang yuan......so many foods!!!

First time I ate till so full, full until my stomach feeling wanna burst, can't even sit! Now finally I undersatnd the feeling of sibeh full, wanna vomit out all those foods! The worst part is you can see the food list is mainly FRIED....now I am having sore throat T.T



**不要让太多昨天占据你的今天**





His parent went a trip in Shanghai, China. Hence, he want to invert his house in upside down....haha~ Then, we have planned a party at his house tonight. Although not much people joining, but we had an enjoyable night.

In the noon, I already start to make sandwich and fried bread. At 5 sharp, my mission is to fetch Cindy and Connie. After we bought fried rice and some beer, we headed to Edward's house. 
 

all things done put on the table


delicious foods are in ready state!


main course -- fried rice



thank to Edward's *good* communication and planning skill
we are having double set of sausagesssssss


bread soak with egg, fried with planta


egg sandwiches


pumpkin dessert


ribena water


after eat and some chit chat, it's time to cleaning up
....but why just me washing dishes here??


Having our chit chat session in Edward's room
obviously a crazy Jay Chou fans...lol~



don't miss this chance to camwhore with Jay Chou..................poster~lol~

beer......of Edward and Cindy
I didn't drink even one drop....innocent~


this naughty girl drink so much beer!!!


this is also naughty guy which drink beer and drink afterward!




***跑得慢,用走的,再不行用爬的,真的不行了,要学会放手***



Everyday having a bad life, wake up damn late and miss the breakfast best time. However, I also ate my breakfast , so have lunch at a later time as well. Finally, today didn't having a boring daily routine. I went to my friend's house and had a nice chit chat.

Following up next, I go movie with some friends for movie premier which is FREE!!! Altitude, a movie about a plane lost in the dark sky. This movie is quite exciting in how the 5 friends overcome their plane technical problems....but it's was quite sweat =.=||| at the ending when you have find out what was actually happened in the movie. Interesting to know? Go get yourself a ticket when it's on cinema.



***恋爱时,男人让女人心慌意乱;结婚后,男人让女人手忙脚乱***



Recently, my friend asked me why you never update your blog as frequently as last time...hmmm....because there's nohting to blog lo~ I think I won't wanna write just to let my bloggie always update, but in fact there's nothing worth to be recorded. However, I will write when I am moody or boring....haha~

Actually is not that I lazy to update my blog, but life recently become less interesting. Everyday wake up and sit infront computer but don't know what I want to do, this is so called lifeless! Many things I wanna do and planned to do during this free time, but don't know why everyday will end up in no direction.

Now, what I wanna do is to share a writing by myself in August. Seem like now only I have time and mood to type it here and share...su-mi-ma-she for any broken chinese~


最近的我,随着妹妹的步伐,好像爱上了那些青少年的小说。《青色的围墙》是我阅读红蜻蜓书籍里的第二本。青色的围墙,顾名思义,青色指的是亲情,围墙就是两父女之间的隔膜。在这小说里,身为作家的父亲独立养大唯一的女儿。但是,父亲执着的个性让他不肯放下身段,尝试去了解与信任女儿,进而在两人之间筑起了一道透明的围墙。最后,所幸父亲从错误中领悟过来,明白太高的围墙是不可能跨过去的,只有弯下腰才能穿过那道青色的围墙,促进父女之间的关系。

我还蛮喜欢这本书。它的情节精彩,采用了一种不同的手法来批评现今社会里子女们与父母之间的问题,真有意思!看完这本书后,心中好想让两位朋友也读一读这本《青色的围墙》,他们都是与父亲拥有围墙的孩子,极少与父亲沟通,关系恶劣。在家里,大家都对对方漠不关心,不闻不问,甚至视而不见。


对于这样的亲子关系,我先是震惊,天下父母哪个不疼爱自己儿女呢?后来就泛起怜悯之心,怎么他们有一个不快乐的家庭啊?我蠢蠢的,希望通过我的三言两语就能够改变他们主动去修好那恶劣的关系。可是,谁都知道没那么容易啦!我也只是单纯地希望能够做点什么的,不愿见到这样的家庭伤心故事发生在我身边的朋友身上。


看见他们,我恍然觉得自己好幸福!原来我是身在福中不知福,原来幸福不是必然的,原来我好幸运地出生在一个快乐的小康之家。我有疼爱、关心、呵护我的爸妈;我能与他们谈笑风生,沟通良好,完全没有围墙的容身之地。每日,我都会如秘书报告我一天以内所发生的大事,让他们了解我在外头的动向。


家,是一个温暖既快乐的避风港。住在里面的家庭成员都必须相亲相爱,互相关心,零距离。家人是永远在你有难时,挺你到底,给予无私无限帮助的人。家人是让你能够卸下保护层,露出真性情的人。大家既然有缘能够成为家人,那是上天赐给你的福份,因此务必珍惜。我始终相信世上没有冷漠的父母,只要你主动去破冰,总能溶化他们的冰心。


很多人都觉得父母的存在是必然的,他们呕心沥血的付出也是应该的。但是,请想想那些可怜的孤儿,为何他们都没有必然的父母,也没有父母应该的付出?这是,你是否还会觉得你所拥有的是必然的吗?幸运的我们,应该要存着感恩的心,因为我们原来是那么的幸福和侥幸的一群。每日对爸妈大喊大叫的,暴躁粗鲁的,蛮横霸道的,是时候静心想一想到底应不应该。


身体发肤,受之父母。无论父母对你如何,没有他们也就没有你。树欲静而风不止,子欲养而亲不待,要把握现在好好孝顺他们,报答他们对你所付出的。记住他们给你的幸福不是必然的,切记珍惜。一个温暖的拥抱,甚至一句简单的关心问候,都是窝心的。



It's still few months to go for the school re-open of degree study. What to do in this time??? All start searching for accouting jobs to gain some experience in this period of time. How about me? I am having my part time job which I just can't quit, so with it, how can I get a full time job?

Going interview twice, first time is a company with only one CEO, so dangerous working there; another is at the job agency which offer me an account assistant position and it attract me!!! BUT it is a full time job, I can't work for it unless I squeeze my time and work like a cow....haiz~ I just can't make up my mind!!